Poshness reminds me of him. Hell. Everything reminds me of him. Is this healthy?

I was talking to a few of my friends about how hard it is for me to find people I can be close to. I get along with just about everyone because of my eclectic taste and contradictory personality, but people I can really hang out with are few, and I think it's because I fall somewhere in the middle of life.

I enjoy nerdy things. Anime, fighting games, classical music, highbrow literature. However, I also love to shop for designer clothes, go to the beach, drink beyond my tipsy limit, and watch football. How many anime fans do you know that honestly enjoy football?

What I'm saying is that what I look for in a person is not categorizable. I don't want a computer nerd or an emo kid or an anime geek or a social butterfly. I want someone who has pieces of all of that. I want a fucking human being.

[I always feel this way.]