I need a goal. I need a goal that will get me money. I need to get my mind off Yoshiki. I need to get a comic published. I need to find another friend. I need to find something that doesn't weight itself against my own worth.

I need to get a new CD burner to satisfy my mix-making moods. I need to stop drinking so much that I wake up drunk and go back to bed. I need to get somewhere outside of my room. I need to stop wallowing in a useless love.

I need to do something with all the gold-stamped letters in my outbox, even if it's just scattering them along a random road.