.old. .new. .guestbook. .notes. .email. .profile. .diaryland. .song. .story. .cliques. .records. .rings. .results. .livejournal. 2008-01-01 - Here we go... 2007-11-06 - if that is the way you feel... 2007-09-24 - a toast to broken glass 2007-07-22 - It gets lost in the tide, but... 2007-06-09 - Back to my roots? 2007-05-08 - An attempt at visual explanation. 2007-04-02 - a few rants 2007-03-08 - Give it a rest, people. 2007-01-08 - So that's it. 2006-10-21 - maybe then? 2006-09-09 - What's happened? 2006-08-23 - lalalala 2006-07-04 - This is not beauty. This is disease. 2006-06-26 - Not so different. 2006-05-25 - Is this a joke? 2006-05-02 - Haru made ni aimashyo. 2006-04-21 - We are free. 2006-04-08 - Nothing like a rockstar to free the creative soul. 2006-03-19 - whinewhine 2006-02-18 - I know you don't. 2006-02-08 - How alone are you? Think about it. 2006-02-03 - my thoughts touching every second 2006-01-15 - Teardrops on fire. 2006-01-01 - The obligatory new years entry. 2005-12-16 - Flatlined. 2005-12-07 - don't worry, I'll be fine. 2005-12-02 - allow me to complain. 2005-11-20 - it snuck up on me. 2005-11-14 - the roar of space? 2005-10-28 - some days might be grey & dreary 2005-10-10 - just let it be 2005-09-29 - new skin. 2005-09-20 - if you can't fix it, you gotta stand it. 2005-09-07 - seeing everything 2005-09-04 - dear god, the humanity. 2005-08-27 - the one at lunar park. 2005-08-12 - that's all it is, yet... 2005-08-05 - open the doors to my trust fund 2005-07-26 - think I could sell this? 2005-07-12 - I work. I work. 2005-06-29 - Like being haunted by an ancestor. 2005-06-26 - 'You are my Ecstasy.' 2005-06-23 - Time will evade us again. 2005-06-09 - Nervous until wine. 2005-06-04 - Exfoliate your resolution. 2005-06-03 - Oversight? 2005-05-28 - addendum 2005-05-19 - rage. pure rage. 2005-05-02 - It's that time again. 2005-04-26 - although words aren't enough to bare your soul... 2005-04-11 - I can't think of a title for this. I love Yoshiki. 2005-04-05 - Anata. 2005-04-03 - Toki o koetai. 2005-03-17 - Wow, I've been productive. 2005-03-15 - Hi, my name is Cliché: The Novel. 2005-03-04 - eyes can smile 2005-02-16 - lack of sleep makes me drift 2005-02-03 - I have no morals. 2005-01-28 - I've really taken a hit. - things I like. 2005-01-14 - Last Song nostalgia. 2005-01-12 - at what point did this become a writing journal? 2005-01-03 - rough around the edges 2004-12-21 - this is the place where my mind resists. 2004-12-09 - unplugged [I wish] 2004-12-02 - mada mattieru 2004-11-20 - I needed last night. 2004-11-11 - duh. 2004-11-06 - oh. is that what it is? 2004-10-31 - burning girl 2004-10-19 - lament 2004-10-12 - picking up the aftereffect 2004-10-08 - there are no words. 2004-10-01 - a little fall of rain. 2004-09-27 - self 2004-09-21 - my graphic novel! 2004-09-19 - let it be love. 2004-09-17 - what ethics of thought? 2004-09-09 - ham on rye. 2004-09-02 - It's hellblazing out there. 2004-08-30 - lounge. 2004-08-27 - Just another shitty day in paradise. 2004-08-21 - an attraction to shiny objects 2004-08-18 - an altercation that always mirrors itself 2004-08-13 - today sucks. 2004-08-08 - words of finality on a few things 2004-07-27 - [in the shadow of my unwavering love] - a song for me. 2004-07-21 - book soup. 2004-07-09 - desire is arbitrary 2004-07-01 - things are better this way 2004-06-24 - this colour hurts. 2004-06-21 - lots of drinks lead to babble 2004-06-10 - drabble 2004-05-29 - air, orchestral, sweet... 2004-05-23 - beer is glee. 2004-05-21 - game end. 2004-05-19 - fun game. yeah. 2004-05-16 - be awake. 2004-05-13 - I shall try to interest you and say... 2004-05-11 - It's hard to be forgiving. 2004-05-07 - the girls will say 'oh yes!' [says tim] 2004-05-04 - CHRIST ALMIGHTY. 2004-05-02 - footsteps of being 2004-05-01 - another year, come and gone. 2004-05-01 - writing is life... 2004-04-29 - welcome back, brain. 2004-04-26 - hey baby scratch your number 2004-04-22 - all I ever wanted 2004-04-21 - think about it... 2004-04-19 - Kaori Yuki owns me. 2004-04-13 - gayness 2004-04-09 - get up and go outside 2004-04-02 - I just want. 2004-03-27 - life's a wait. I already knew. 2004-03-18 - yeeeaahhh 2004-03-14 - I stretch at the shadows and try not to scream. 2004-03-11 - and I wake from this shallow sleep. 2004-02-26 - girls, girls, girls, and why I'm not one... 2004-02-18 - I see myself inside 2004-02-15 - so where's my hangover? 2004-02-05 - reasons to feel beautiful. 2004-02-01 - a regression. - things I like. 2004-01-26 - the ugly duckling 2004-01-22 - utopia utopia, it's my brand new home 2004-01-19 - Stars on Ice geekdom. 2004-01-14 - intellectual and emotional torture: ah, what a day. 2004-01-12 - when all the oxygen's used up, how will you breathe? 2004-01-08 - we try to make things right 2004-01-06 - mmm, beer. 2004-01-03 - junk story. 2003-12-18 - comfort. 2003-12-15 - 'if it's all dreams, now wake me up' 2003-12-14 - I shouldn't be so excited. 2003-12-10 - hey, celebration! 2003-12-06 - race and reward. 2003-12-03 - incoherence in empathy. 2003-12-01 - bumbumbabum [ah, home] 2003-11-21 - being smitten sucks. 2003-11-20 - happy birthday. 2003-11-18 - more thoughts 2003-11-17 - a thought. 2003-11-15 - yoshiki goodness. 2003-11-09 - fine but not? alive. 2003-11-07 - slowly. slowly. it starts to fade. 2003-11-04 - Introducing... my other psyche. 2003-10-31 - Halloween is for people cooler than me. 2003-10-30 - l'heure 2003-10-25 - I am in massive amounts of pain. 2003-10-23 - in this moment... 2003-10-21 - I catch him, an artifact, in my arms. 2003-10-16 - oh poppy, where is thy reference? 2003-10-13 - I'm so out of touch with my feelings it's pathetic. 2003-10-10 - funhouse dreams 2003-10-06 - sinus blockage. 2003-10-02 - lodged in my head, where all the fun is 2003-09-28 - kore wa yume. 2003-09-25 - running out of words at birth beneath the coolness and dryness and desert rain, am I old again... 2003-09-23 - yeah, I'm in love. move along, move along. 2003-09-22 - sorrow's daily rhyme 2003-09-20 - on and on 2003-09-17 - everything should come together [but instead it breaks apart] 2003-09-14 - words that sting, I suffer 2003-09-13 - ima wo dakishimete 2003-09-10 - the blaze that keeps me awake 2003-09-08 - bisexuality rocks. 2003-09-07 - somewhere in the middle... 2003-09-03 - Bad poets abound, and I am miserable. 2003-09-01 - sour-sweet-and-salty. 2003-08-30 - collaboration! application! no more frustration. 2003-08-27 - I need to break the silence. 2003-08-26 - lost broken shards 2003-08-24 - dead ambience. 2003-08-22 - cheeboy to the rescue. [see his cape flowing.] 2003-08-20 - [something unidentifiable] 2003-08-17 - more clothes. why? because I feel like it. 2003-08-16 - ideal love is temporary 2003-08-14 - I'm in a good mood today. 2003-08-12 - sipping wine, losing time, so divine. 2003-08-04 - writing from the great outdoors [gasp]. 2003-07-28 - the leaving song. 2003-07-24 - noding, nothing. 2003-07-23 - there is art in here somewhere. 2003-07-22 - no need to be hurt anymore. 2003-07-19 - drawing down my dreams. 2003-07-16 - content. type. slash. 2003-07-15 - beautiful fictitious worlds... 2003-07-13 - they say to cry is to know that you're alive. 2003-07-10 - I have succumbed. 2003-07-09 - a day done in gold 2003-07-07 - random downer. 2003-07-04 - musical musing. 2003-07-01 - abstinence officially forgotten. 2003-06-29 - ghosts, whoever they are. 2003-06-27 - meant to live in reverse. 2003-06-26 - it's hot in here and I'm bored. 2003-06-24 - in the sun sun havin' fun [aka the completely useless entry] 2003-06-22 - my lover is a fever 2003-06-20 - love. only a four letter word. 2003-06-18 - the gorgeous workings of my drunken brain... 2003-06-17 - hot. sickly. the usual. 2003-06-16 - [time to collapse] 2003-06-15 - so much for that. 2003-06-14 - slightly hungover and satisfied 2003-06-11 - the devil. 2003-06-10 - a story and sanity go hand in hand! 2003-06-09 - gush. 2003-06-09 - peddled into morning. 2003-06-05 - never going to find it if you're looking for it... 2003-06-02 - you're taking up my time. 2003-06-01 - hottest day on record, traffic's a monster. 2003-05-31 - struggling for what to say... 2003-05-24 - the closest I'll ever get to fashion photography. 2003-05-23 - the la in three days tour 2003-05-18 - surrealism, sadness, general sag 2003-05-15 - touch me with your light and I'll burn like a star. 2003-05-14 - angst. again. 2003-05-12 - creative nervousness, random thought patterns 2003-05-10 - I've become a parody of myself. 2003-05-08 - frustration, gay angels, and other aspects of the promenade 2003-05-06 - x japan and general incoherence. 2003-05-05 - counting on one hand 2003-05-02 - 2 may 2003 2003-05-01 - francesca and her vision. 2003-04-28 - rhyme, reason, and good animation. 2003-04-25 - bits and pieces 2003-04-21 - random emotional introspection. 2003-04-20 - fiction: better luck tomorrow. 2003-04-17 - la dee da 2003-04-13 - suspension. 2003-04-10 - let's just keep singing 2003-04-08 - get up get out 2003-04-05 - I can sleep again. 2003-04-03 - married to my work? I think so. 2003-04-01 - tattoo and stuff 2003-03-31 - musings in sweat and silence. 2003-03-31 - going out of my head 2003-03-28 - LA rant. 2003-03-26 - shows and things to lift me up. 2003-03-23 - and the smile and the shake of your head. 2003-03-17 - hoping to discover something about the world 2003-03-13 - prayers for no rain. 2003-03-11 - until I fall. 2003-03-08 - fun with a slogan generator 2003-03-07 - random notes 2003-03-07 - lovesick: a mix. 2003-03-05 - I fear I've said too much. 2003-03-04 - love is like a bottle of beer. 2003-02-28 - this is just a dream. 2003-02-25 - sore, empty, blank. 2003-02-23 - see. I'm getting higher. 2003-02-21 - new song + randomness 2003-02-19 - the bad and the good. 2003-02-16 - back from Nashville. 2003-02-10 - thud. 2003-02-08 - once and for all dice away... 2003-02-05 - feeding off the eyes of cupid. 2003-02-04 - I wish that I could trade these eyes... 2003-02-03 - weekly angst 2003-02-02 - I have no skin. 2003-01-31 - it's shady stuff 2003-01-30 - the hypocrisy of the 'literary' world 2003-01-28 - this is not fiction. this is shit. 2003-01-26 - swaying 2003-01-24 - ecstasy incarnate 2003-01-22 - nothing clever. 2003-01-21 - solitaire 2003-01-18 - imagine a divine breath. 2003-01-18 - Stars On Ice review 2003-01-17 - why should anyone? 2003-01-16 - I've tried everything to get along with you... 2003-01-14 - surface tension. 2003-01-12 - because I'm not perfect. 2003-01-08 - pretentious rant. 2003-01-06 - gushing, static, euphoria 2003-01-05 - finally fucking here. 2002-12-28 - the legendary last shout 2002-12-24 - no subject today. 2002-12-22 - week end. 2002-12-16 - Hallmark review. 2002-12-15 - just breathe. 2002-12-10 - but it really doesn't matter. 2002-12-10 - well shit. 2002-12-09 - birthday. I guess. 2002-12-08 - the obligatory LA entry. 2002-12-03 - stuff. 2002-12-01 - I'm so tired. My love burns. 2002-11-29 - don't wanna believe. 2002-11-25 - I'm feelin happy so highly evolved 2002-11-24 - just a night 2002-11-22 - there's no going back. 2002-11-21 - ah will you stay with me? 2002-11-20 - song. 2002-11-19 - art of life. 2002-11-18 - I've been fighting for it. 2002-11-16 - kimi wa therapy... 2002-11-15 - will you come to me? 2002-11-11 - love and rants. 2002-11-09 - dead. 2002-11-07 - emotion in motion... 2002-11-06 - if it's true or not. 2002-11-05 - stay at home tonight 2002-11-03 - just communication. 2002-11-02 - nothing I can do. 2002-10-29 - you will live through this 2002-10-28 - how you sparkle 2002-10-27 - shadows often leave perfection in a mess. 2002-10-26 - I can't imagine. 2002-10-25 - I could sleep for days 2002-10-21 - 'I just want to know you.' 2002-10-18 - winter, again 2002-10-16 - I just wrote an essay and nobody assigned it. 2002-10-15 - it really doesn't matter 2002-10-13 - winter. 2002-10-08 - thank you alexei. 2002-10-08 - skater boy 2002-10-05 - Going out of my head. 2002-10-03 - 1969 2002-10-03 - I feel like letting go. 2002-10-02 - Wondering when I'll be okay. 2002-09-30 - I'm gonna get free. 2002-09-29 - It rains and it rains. 2002-09-28 - I can barely breathe. 2002-10-11 - Rain. 2002-10-09 - playing like a scared enthusiastic pawn 2002-09-19 - straight from the vine. 2002-09-17 - crikey. 2002-09-15 - it's all drawn out 2002-09-12 - mary jane says I can love you 2002-09-11 - emotion in motion 2002-09-10 - it'll be just fine. 2002-09-09 - everyoneintheworlddon'taffectyou 2002-09-08 - I'm seeing footsteps in the rain. - words from me. - a theme for me. 2002-09-06 - autumn shade 2002-09-03 - day after day. 2002-09-01 - endless melody 2002-08-29 - 24 seconds to freedom 2002-08-28 - so much stuff. 2002-08-26 - hn. 2002-08-25 - randomness 2002-08-22 - get me back from this haze. 2002-08-21 - any day now... 2002-08-19 - scared shitless. 2002-08-18 - sweet life I know 2002-08-17 - if you don't cry 2002-08-13 - all my friends are rockstars, all my friends are dead or gone 2002-08-13 - one. 2002-08-11 - nightmares and dreamscapes 2002-08-09 - if you touch me I'll kill you 2002-08-07 - writing to reach you. 2002-08-05 - I am a joke in love. 2002-08-02 - summer days, they let me drift away... 2002-07-25 - like a merry-go-round. 2002-07-21 - I will make these songs come true 2002-07-21 - ramble 2002-07-20 - fuct 2002-07-18 - drink or die 2002-07-16 - rocket 2002-07-11 - the last song 2002-07-09 - from otsego. 2002-07-05 - immortalizing the moment. 2002-07-02 - sometimes there's so much beauty... 2002-07-01 - do you feel alive? 2002-06-30 - songs and such things. 2002-06-25 - kimi wa therapy 2002-06-24 - because tonight I refuse to say goodbye 2002-06-22 - all I see is blue in my heart. 2002-06-20 - time after time you try to find yourself... 2002-06-20 - forever love is peace. 2002-06-18 - starve my brain. 2002-06-17 - on the subject of wanting wings. 2002-06-16 - survey 2002-06-15 - no hide? 2002-06-15 - beauty blinds. 2002-06-13 - I don't wanna be lonely 2002-06-12 - and the grand facade so soon will burn 2002-06-09 - a new moon in summertime 2002-06-05 - hackcoughsneeze 2002-06-01 - and it's real. 2002-05-30 - i deny myself i know i know i know 2002-05-25 - just enough to make you weak 2002-05-21 - pink spider 2002-05-19 - on the stage 2002-05-17 - eternal wish 2002-05-15 - a taste of the city life 2002-05-09 - no artist has ethical sympathies 2002-05-08 - don't mean nothing to me 2002-05-06 - every monday morning comes 2002-05-04 - rebirthday 2002-05-02 - until we meet again in the spring. 2002-05-01 - ... didn't you? 2002-04-29 - city of angels 2002-04-24 - run for tomorrow as fast as you can 2002-04-22 - the youth are plastic 2002-04-21 - you can be the enemy 2002-04-17 - art star 2002-04-17 - kono daremo inai heya de 2002-04-14 - how am I ever gonna make them understand 2002-04-11 - your silent whisper 2002-04-09 - sing for the song still carries on 2002-04-06 - time goes by like tears 2002-04-01 - beautiful moon won't you cast an eye on me 2002-04-01 - calling out for all the things I never had 2002-03-28 - you don't know the truth 2002-03-27 - thrust the candle into the dark of your disease 2002-03-26 - every lovely flower 2002-03-19 - this is a mystic pageant 2002-03-18 - hey celebration 2002-03-16 - more to this than you will ever show 2002-03-14 - I need some time to believe in me 2002-03-13 - another rejection 2002-03-10 - there's nothing I can do 2002-03-05 - lose everything and find yourself 2002-03-03 - she's in fashion 2002-03-01 - no medication 2002-02-28 - i'm bored out of my mind 2002-02-26 - glowing glowing glowing divine 2002-02-26 - heard about your fame 2002-02-23 - sleep does nothing for you 2002-02-20 - you were bigger and brighter and wider than snow 2002-02-20 - poetry in motion 2002-02-19 - the stars are laughing 2002-02-17 - shifting the dream 2002-02-14 - mistaking poison for disease 2002-02-10 - walk easy on your young feet 2002-02-08 - we know we have this impulse 2002-02-07 - focused lunacy 2002-02-06 - i'm just way too tired 2002-02-04 - i get so tired working so hard for our survival 2002-02-03 - i don't know what happened to me 2002-01-31 - oh tell me why 2002-01-30 - coming into focus 2002-01-27 - tied up to all these crutches 2002-01-25 - i want to walk in the snow and not leave a footprint 2002-01-23 - breaking and shaking, delete the feeling 2002-01-22 - advertise a suicide that anyone can try 2002-01-22 - tests and computers and fiction, oh my 2002-01-17 - another no one 2002-01-14 - wooster, room 2002-01-10 - i have my little disease i said it's nice and free and just for me 2002-01-10 - she came from nashville with a suitcase in her hand - rings I belong to. 2002-01-07 - i feel so blue in this white poem 2002-01-06 - just a finely tuned jealousy 2002-01-04 - two weeks out 2001-12-19 - fading away again i'll find my way home 2001-12-12 - i've watched a change in you 2001-12-09 - birthday present 2001-12-07 - trying your luck 2001-12-07 - going out 2001-12-07 - stalking and solace 2001-12-04 - listen boy your beauty is nothing to your blue 2001-12-02 - time off 2001-11-30 - friday feelings 2001-11-29 - two people 2001-11-28 - ja zoo and registration 2001-11-27 - new computer 2001-11-24 - looking up slowly 2001-11-20 - unstable and scary 2001-11-19 - one two three freeze completely 2001-11-17 - forever dream 2001-11-17 - liberate the people that you hate 2001-11-16 - temporary insanity 2001-11-15 - say anything just tell me all of your sweet lies 2001-11-15 - nightmares and dreamscapes 2001-11-14 - java musings 2001-11-14 - where do we go from here?